It’s 98 degrees today. My brain is afflux with thoughts of no sleep and heat stroke. My brain is slowly dying in the abyss of the day. As I curse the heat and lack of air conditioners downstairs I find three boxes on my porch. Ahhhhh yes.. Amazon loves me.. As does Converse dot com too.. It’s bloody fucking Christmas in June.
First box.. Word perfect.. Not for me throw that aside.. Oooh yes my new Logitech keyboard.. I really wish the fuckers at Logitech would make a better keyboard for people who don’t sit above the dam usb port but this one will do as long as I don’t block lien of site.. Nice spaced out keys etc…. I’ll kill it in a year no doubt.. I really am rough on my keyboards.
Second box same as the first..
As we open the box Jack says bluntly.. Why does mommy need more shoes…. Aww Jackie why is the question.. Because I can and I will get new shoes!
]o …kidding…Camera bag.. I ordered an adorable camera bag the other day that could double as a purse for travel and concerts etc.. I wanted to order the small one before I decided to order a second small one for Maia or need a bigger one for me.. She gets the black one. Mine is a weird green canvas and it came today.. Nikon fits perfectly and too me this is like good sex.. Well maybe.. I’m almost 45 shopping might actually be better.

Third verse same as the first.. No it’s a fucking converse box… ok seriously now what is sex.. This box contains SHOES!
I needed a pair of good lightweight tennis for a plane trip to see my mom soon. These are made of mesh.. Will do perfectly as I despise the flip flop wearing stinky feet freaks next to me on a plane yet I understand that you needs shoes that come off easily but seriously.. Seriously??????Wash your fucking feet.
As we open the box Jack says bluntly.. Why does mommy need more shoes…. Aww Jackie why is the question.. Because I can and I will get new shoes!


I also ordered two dresses from a store called Holy Clothing. Weird thing there is they are shipping it from Germany.. I am not sure I am liking that at all.. I order from a small dress place in the states and they have stuff made in India for them.. Which I love Indian batiks but…. WTF ……Germany?
Might be the only time I order from them.. The dresses better rock my world… I have a strange desire lately to dress better.. Wear more flowy pretty things and embrace my age and the fact I don’t look almost 45..
45 in itself is killing me.. I look at pics of me in my twenties and know that NOW I take shitty pics. I know I am not ugly BUT..45 seems so middle age…I miss the days of catcalls and whistles that used to drive me nuts and annoy me..
So seriously if you are young and get whistled at enjoy it..IT GOES AWAY. Enjoy the youth.. enjoy being attractive!
I swear I blush when people tell me I’m pretty.
I want to be told I am pretty.. I am shallow and I enjoy it.
In fact to survive my impending old age I need it..
Some days I settle for cool shoes though!
So I am working on the prom pic blog and the house reno blog.. and a few other fun treats. I will still be doing Flashback Fridays but…… tomorrow the flashback will only be till May..
I also wooohooooo ready for this.. Dusted off my rough draft of my book.. I promised myself to finish it by 45.. Well I didn’t say I had to be turning 45.. So I am determined to get it done in my 45th year..
I need to go dismantle a bed.. A broken sleigh bed.. There is air in that room.. Would be nice to feel it.
Starting Monday we will be more structured.. In the blog and in life. Jack’s autism needs it.. My health needs it and my sanity needs it.
If I could have anything in the world this week it would be to go out and take pictures this weekend. Maybe take in a movie.. And breathe…..
Till then..
Here is a little hint about the book I have been writing since I lived in Seattle..
I heard this song in 2008 and went wow.. That is what my book is about.. Wow…

This is just TV Smith doing it solo…But the song on the king of all the animals is both him and Jarrko Heinio finish record producer and leader of the band Tiger bombs.. KOATA was his side project.. I got to hear a lot of masters.. And I was the first to play this song on radio… all because I friended him when I started with Woody..
TV smith is famous in my world as the old lead singer of the Adverts.. hellofa guy…We should all find Safety in Television when looking through Gary Gilmore’s eyes.
Till then just breathe.. cough a little if the air quality sucks and try to breathe again!