I’m lazy.. Without a doubt.. I need motivation.. I seem to be missing that lately. Or maybe it’s just my ADD creeping in.
I’m trying very very hard to not give up on the blog.. But somedays I look and although I see that people read it only a couple people actually comment.
It’s not a private blog. Feel free to share it. Feel free to comment. I’m here to amuse you and make an ass of myself really!
I’ve actually been writing the same blog since Friday. It’s a laundry list of sites that support me and I want you to check it all out. But life got in the way!
I’m gonna run that tomorrow.. It has a new special pic by Jaws too that he gave me last week..!!! It’s perfect for it!
I’ve been stimulated by reminding myself why I moved here. Who else but me could take a shoulder injury and turn it into a time to hang out in my area and see new things..
So back to my reality..The blog is time consuming.. But it’s what I love.. I went to college to be a writer. English major..Can you tell by all the bad grammar?.. Yeah it’s called dropping out after three years of randomly pissing the time away..A move I absolutely regret. I should have finished the minor in photo.. At least that would have been completing something. My procrastination doubled with others make one really no such luck kid..
Which brings me to Maia
How could she even think that she didn’t take after me! HA!
I was and am so proud of her. University! Scholarships! Etc…. She is a good kid.. But she is mine. And ADD runs on both sides here.
She ended up creative more than nerdy. More artsy fartsy than scientist.. And I can’t blame her on it! Though I hope it’s skipped a generation..
Her dad has two BA’s in music.. I’m a writer.. What were we thinking?
When Maia took an interest in the sciences I wondered where she came from. I hate all that stuff. In fourth grade she informed our vet she wanted to be a real doctor.. Then she went back on that and wanted to be a vet. For awhile she wanted to study physics and math then back to science and vet finally realizing it needed to be a lab based biology. For a week it was forensics and then finally genetics. Never anything but science.
A trip to CalPoly though was thwarted when she realized cool views are still in the middle of nowhere. Maybe the attention span thing was already in effect there.
My dad was a little unthrilled with her there.. It was a long drive for her to not want to go. Or even look at the school he graduated from and was thinking about.. She wanted to stay in the car.. I could have killed her for that actually.. I was disappointed.
She never waivered on science..it was always a nerd field she chose.
THEN..
She discovered art.
A minor in art is ok, right?
Then she wanted to change that to major.. A double.. Then the chem. class pissed her off..
Then the trip to Italy with the art class.
I saw this coming.
On Friday Maia dropped science.
I am not disappointed. I’m sad she had such a long time dream to discover she didn’t enjoy it at all. I do Blame her ADD for it and was worried about that all along.. I wonder had we kept her on ADD meds past 7th grade would she have been a valedictorian.. Super genius or what?
I let her be herself and make any decision she chooses.
She isn’t hyper just ADD. So the meds would just help focus.. Then again she should not choose a path where she needs stimulants to focus anyway.
And she just can’t do science it annoys her now.. And frankly I think it’s too enclosed for her and I think she is making the right choice based on her personality.
BUT
And this is a huge but.. I will not allow her to keep quitting like I did.. She has goals and she needs to stand her ground somewhere.. I am no less proud of her as an art student then I was at her being pre-med.
She loves art so much her new major is Art history with a goal of Doctorate. She wants to concentrate on either a museum curator or professor for college.
She also in doubling her major with a degree in communications.
Since she has been at the radio station at college she found a niche.
And honestly that niche might pay better than a teacher. Either way I did offer her a cooking with ramen cookbook.
She isn’t choosing a career based on money just love. And she might be penniless and have to marry rich. BUT she is following her heart.
How many of us worked dead end jobs or got useless degrees. How many of us don’t do anything at all that we love. How are we to judge a kid who chooses their own path instead of one chosen for them?
In the last few days I have fielded many a question from concerned friends. I assure them she will be ok.
The radio station is NPR by the way.. She is formally being trained to run an NPR station at age 19. Well that is the age she will be when she is station manager. Yes, last week Maia applied for the job formally to run the station starting spring of next year.. The youngest to do so. And with fingers crossed I am hoping they choose her. She is already the asst. station manager.. This intern position actually pays.
She will land on her feet and she is padding the fall. She feels as if a huge weight has been lifted. And she is ten times happier than I’ve seen her since semester started.
I will no longer be telling stories of my kid the pre-med.. Now I will tell stories of a kid thoroughly engrossed in the study of history and art. A kid who will love ramen and rice ..A HAPPY kid following her heart..
She is no longer an extension of her parents she is doing her own thing.. And she is an artsy fartsy kid…
I think I would have been disappointed had she did her degree to not disappoint us. And hey who knows she could get a job at a huge university and make buko bucks and show us all up.. We are told time and time again that these jobs don’t pay and are worthless. WTF????? They aren’t useless they are needed. Without curators and teachers we have kids not learning the arts at all.
Maia’s heart is telling her to love what has been given to us in the real world.. Look past the computer screen and see the big painted pictures.
I’ve just been handed a key that unjades the puzzle a bit…
